Sunday, June 21, 2009

OMG !

OMG- what is wrong with you???

"why do you keep deleting my posts, what did i do now?"
"why do you keep ignoring me, and not responding?"

blah blah blah. shut up!

hm. why would someone ignore someone else.
intentionally.
and
repeatedly.
??
a rocket scientist is not needed to figure this one out.

it is Broken.
i am done.
i have been done for Months.

YOU reached out.
I did not respond (shocker!)
and guess what?

its not always about you!
nor do you have to respond to f*cking everything!
in fact, its really bothersome!
maybe i don't want to hear your opinion for the umpteenth time!

you are such a smug and arrogant preteen!
you know nothing, and have the emotional maturity of an eighth grader!
go be best friends w/ M*!
you two can comfort one another and feed each others' egos!

i'm tired of explaining myself!
i find silence more effective.

and it probably pisses you off even more.

good.

leave me alone.

why would anyone try so hard when the other has rejected him constantly?

stubborness and persistance are not necessarily positive traits.

grow the f. up and leave me alone ftlog.

I am soo close to being gone.
and no, i don't plan on saying good bye to you.
i hope i am lucky enough to never see you again.

most of you, actually.

The people that i will miss the most
i have known for the shortest period of time.
isn't that ironic?


And he left tonight- not to be back until tuesday.
yes, we have been better-
but its already fizzled.

i feel numb inside.
i watched The Notebook tonight.
i want romance,
hot 'n heavy
can't take your hands off of one another....
sparks, lightening,
SomeThing!
i know things change but its like stale bread.

i love him, i do.
now its time to play the waiting game apparently.
how fast can i get out of here?
that is the question...


And awfully enough, the one thing i'm looking forward to is seeing Cs.
i hope i am right.
i think i am.
i think its mutual.

i need fun, and adoration.
and to be spoiled
flirted with
treated like a princess
something!

*crossing fingers*

why is this the only thing i'm looking forward to?
it shouldn't be...

and it does make me sad.

it's over, isn't it...
it's just not officially final.
yet.